Signs

Signs are an interesting topic, aren't they?

some people believe in them
some people do not

where to i fall among those to spectrum ends
honestly
i am not sure

just in random conversation the other night
a friend mentioned the idea of signs
twice
one good
one bad
about the same person
the same relationship
it got me thinking
about my own soured relationship

what were the signs i saw
what were the ones i missed
or misinterpreted
what does perspective
or the moment
mean

the main thing that came to mind was one special morning
that i felt the night before had no chance of being so
getting sick while hiking up a mountain
with her
and our camping not going anywhere close to
as romantically planned
yet
with the dawn came her shining face
espcially when she saw a beautiful butterfly
her sign
mine was her happiness
or more importantly her complete lack of resentment
of the night before

she must really love me
thats what i felt
that was my sign
that kept me by her side for 17 years

now as that is over
and i look back
to that moment
as revived by my friend's words
i wonder
does it hold the same magic
was it
really
a sign

honestly i do not know
but even with the bitterness
i now feel
all the hurt
the pain
its hard to say
i made up
that sign

my question is
is a sign
that does not lead
to forever
still a sign

is it singular
to its moment
or dependent
on all time

this soul
is not sure
but then again
its not sure about anything much
right now

so i then wonder
will i be too confused
or too blind
or too ingnorant
of any future sign
from anyone else
unless it is
in bright bold neon light

i guess i should just heed
one sign

watch for falling rock