just a little freewrite

unsure of where this is going to go
this stream of babble
or this life
hard to shake it
shake the reality
sometimes
so much so
that it infiltrates
moments
that should be
something else
entirely
brings me down
brings down the room
hovers
festers
pesters
bothers
just all around
blah
bah
humbug

wanting to just breathe
to just be
to find
a solitary moment
a moment
simple
by design
because
it hasnt been
designed
planned
thought out
worried about
dreaded
or feared
it just
is

those moments
are rare
precious
as gold
or diamonds
in the sky
with lucy
or something
like that
anyway
they are
wanted
desired
even
needed
or at least that is how it feels
today
tonight
lately

can you hear
the soft sound
of a sigh
can you feel
the strings it pulls
tugging
ever so slightly
if you take the moment
to really hold
everything
within that moment
keeping words
from staining it
from masking it
from covering up
all the insecurities
and the reflex
reactions
pleasant speak
or witty retorts
all lay
to the side
just as my arms do
stay still
allow for
my heart to breathe
clean air

just yearn
for simple moments
and clean air
not too much to ask
is it

maybe
in this life
it is

for this moment
i just do not know
but
unfortunately
care

*sigh*